How It Started – FreeFeminine

How It Started – FreeFeminine by founder, SarahNicole For as long as I can remember, I’ve been standing on my own feet, proudly sporting a seriously independent spirit.  It manifested in many different ways, but the seed was planted during my childhood years in a divorced and highly dysfunctional household that was defined by integrity, transparency, honor, but also, an undeniable undercurrent of tension and deep pain.  At age 14 everything came to a head. After an emotionally draining weekend visiting my father  (our relationship has always been rocky) for Christmas and New Years, I returned to my mom (my forever best friend) and was struck with a feeling that something was wrong. I didn’t know how wrong it really would be. My mother battled fibromyalgia, depression, and constant pain from bulging discs in her spine. I watched as my mother’s light slowly dwindled with each pill she took. The pain was too much for her to bear and unexpectedly, my mother took her own life on New Years Day, overdosing with pills. Even at 14 years old,  when I didn’t fully understand what or why this tragedy was happening, I knew I had to dig deep and stand tall. At that moment, I realized the only person I could depend on was myself.  For the next 5 years through school, various jobs, and beyond, I became an expert at putting on any and every mask that would make me feel safe enough to belong – even just for a minute. I jumped between various friend groups, interests, passions, and living situations. I became an expert at over-occupying my time and energy so I didn’t have to feel and look at the true pain that was buried below the surface. I was a seemingly well rounded person, excelling in sports and academics, but was developing an addiction to alcohol, battlling depression, and anxiety.  I tried to distract myself from my physical, emotional, and spiritual pain well into my 20s. I struggled with my fair share of narcissistic relationships, several questionable living situations (one ending in the tenant drawing a gun on his girlfriend), debt, codependency, near homelessness (sleeping in a car), anxiety, abuse, terrifying self-talk, PTSD, trauma, and emotional repression… just to name a few.  But the harder I worked to fill the holes with outside influences, the more empty and alone I really felt. It was only through total surrender that I found myself at the foot of a mountain of brutal honesty. What I was doing, my way of thinking, how I dealt with my emotions and the past simply weren’t working.  Are you ready to find the power within you?  Let’s walk hand in hand through the highs and lows, as we rediscover your inner strength and rewrite your narrative. It is my greatest joy to see people owning their power in full force. As a survivor of abusive and narcisstic be In your transformational coaching session we will start from the roots up, repolishing and reframing our inner voices while creating soul serving systems that actually serve us.  Let’s uncover the limitless potential that lies within you. 💫 What’s one self-love practice that has helped you reconnect?🌟 [email protected]